I'm glad you've reached out to us here. You truly are not alone. Depression is debilitating. Do you have even one good friend ego you could talk to? Sometimes it only takes one person to listen and understand. I have a few friends but just one I can totally be myself with. You sound like yr drowning...you aren't a bother. Especially here. Why are you worried about family and friends? Is it because you don't want to feel like z burden? You should try and reach out. I bet you'd be surprised at who'd be there for you. I'm sorry to hear about the issues with yr boyfriend. You deserve to be treated with kindness and respect. Are you living together? If not maybe it's time for a change. No.one deserves to be used and if you feel that in yr gut then I'd do something about it. You are more than welcome to instant message me here. I'd be glad to be an ear for you. I don't want you to feel lost. Write me soon. Hugs samantha

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