Im sad today. Sad of whats to come, when I accept it I am just calm. But today I am sad, sad for my family and friends. I want to warn them so they have a chance to distance themselves but I dont want to worry them, nor give them the opportunity to get the mental health act on to me.

I feel like SH, Im not sure why. Maybe some relief from this sadness and worry? Punishment for what I have and am about to put my support network through? Something to take the pain of the mirena away for just a few seconds perhaps?

Im supposed to go out with friends today. It should be a "fun" day but if Im going to be obsessing over SH, sadness and this incredible tiredness that has overcome me the last few days then I dont know if there is much point. It would be good to have one last "good" weekend though. Have some photos where they think I am happy.