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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Yeah if it were one of my delusions I would immediately assume the docs were lying for some reason maybe they were in league with whoever...maybe they didn't want me to know that half my brain was already gone or maybe they actually showed me a pic of somebody else's brain so I would think everything was OK. Actually I don't think a lot of outright brain damage causes psychosis it usually causes loss of function not gain of stuff like hallucinations and even the medical/neurological causes are typically like very boring hallucinations like spots and auras but not people or animals or other stuff that moves...now epilepsy I think it's reasonable to get and EEG to rule that out because it's electrical and and not structural...and those hallucinations can be anything and it's very real...
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The reason they thought I had an aura was because I felt uncomfortable/like something was going to happen before the breakthrough hallucinations and paranoia hit. But that could have been a panic attack, who knows?
I just feel like I'm getting more stupid and I get the feeling that doctors are laughing at me because they think I'm stupid. Or they're playing along with me because they don't want me to know I have brain damage. It's like I can look back on specific points in my life where I got hit in the head or did something stupid and I can't help but think my brain is damaged. And then I feel like if my brain weren't damaged I would've been able to deal with stress and hallucinations better instead of going crazy like I did...