The reason they thought I had an aura was because I felt uncomfortable/like something was going to happen before the breakthrough hallucinations and paranoia hit. But that could have been a panic attack, who knows?

I just feel like I'm getting more stupid and I get the feeling that doctors are laughing at me because they think I'm stupid. Or they're playing along with me because they don't want me to know I have brain damage. It's like I can look back on specific points in my life where I got hit in the head or did something stupid and I can't help but think my brain is damaged. And then I feel like if my brain weren't damaged I would've been able to deal with stress and hallucinations better instead of going crazy like I did...