My OCD got really triggered this year, for no reason that I know of, and got out of control again. My T and doc put me on meds and despite some side effects lately they've been working really well. I don't know what happened except that I needed help and meds seems to be what I needed. It has helped so much and it feels like I'm starting to have my life back again.

Have you considered medication as an option. I don't want to push you if you dont want it, but I did want to let you know that it has really helped me.

Good luck
I hope things get better

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