I am overwhelmed....and angry. You are right. I am angry because I feel like I let everything just keep piling up and now I don't only have one dilemma to deal with, but about 45. I don't even want to talk to anyone about anything anymore because I am at the point where I just feel I am complaining. And it just seems the more and more people that I meet, the more and more people that can ignore me, show me they don't care and then ultimately just disappoint me. Right now, I don't even know where to start with the psycho analytical problems I have going on in my head right now. I feel like all I really want is to find someone that can relate and say, I know exactly what you mean. However, all I really have is a big fat list of no ones or someones that just say, I suggest you get help. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate all the help and suggestions that I get, I am just lonely and feel all alone in this little corner of the world. Everytime I look around, there is no one standing there...just me. I am depressed and I can't seem to spin out of it. I miss living life and right now, what I am doing is not living, it is playing out a pattern. School, work, homework, chores, tv and this forum if I have time. Does anyone ever feel like their head is going to explode? I have so much that I want to do, that I have to do and I just feel at times that I can't even start cause I don't know where to start. Honestly, I really think I just want someone to tell me that I am crazy so they can dope me up all the time and I can just sit in a little cell and not even realize that I am thinking thought after though and that I am all alone. I am the most functioning dysfunctinal individual ever. I bet if you ever met me you would never guess this is all going on in my head. And yet, so much of what I do that goes unexplained could be explained so easily if I could just find that one person I trust enough to be honest with. Bottom line, I just feel I am on one end of a see saw with the other end holding everyone else and the only way to get there is to take this giant, uncertain leap that I am just too scared to do alone...but here's the rub...there's no one on my side to jump with me. So it's loneliness or uncertain fear and to be honest.......my mind is empty.