I post this here because I'm unsure of where else this would fit. I'll attempt to keep this short and sweet.

I get extremely upset, angry and anxious when my two - only - friends make plans without me. I'm paranoid they're going to end up forgetting me and leaving me behind. They are already closer than I am to them - simply because I'm so different from them. It just causes this huge panic over the fear of them abandoning me but instead of clinging, I push them away. I get angry and push them away. It's a mess of emotion. It's just in my head, I don't understand why they don't invite me but it's always all three of us if I'm there, never just like... me and another. That's unclear. Like example, my friends (not really) are Bob and Bill. It's always bob, bill and me. Never just me and Bill. It's like they don't want me around. I'm not sure why I get like this... It just causes me a huge amount of anxiety.

Please tell me I'm not crazily clingy and this is linked to anxiety and/or my poor self esteem?

(Apologies for the mess and disorganization of my text, I'm currently in the situation so my thoughts are flying)