Self injury doesn't always work for me - so I'm on the fence about believing that when you cut the body releases endorphins, etc. Times like tonight when i'm extremely anxious (for seemingly no reason - just came out of no where) - self injury makes me feel better. Started with cutting, but the areas I cut though not that fresh are still too sore to tackle.

What did do the trick for me was/is finger pricking. I felt a flood of release as the pain hit my finger in an uncontrollable quick puncture. Sometimes it takes a few pricks to get that "glory moment" - but finger pricking does the job.

Not only do I not necessarily believe entirely the thing about endorphins (I do think that some people feel that rush but not me) but everything online says "Cutters don't cut because they are suicidal or want attention; they want help".

Well, I realized that I don't cut because i'm suicidal, want attention, or want help. I self injure because it feels good.