I remember my first cut that was deep enough for stitches. Oh the feeling! I crave it now. I worry that I will do it again as soon as I get out of here, even though its been years. The problem is, once you start cutting deeper, you crave that deeper cut every time. You might not notice it as first, but the shallow cuts no longer do it for you. Then you get into nerve and muscle damage territory, which is not good. Maybe get rid of this new tool before you get too addicted to it.

I've read you have a daughter? Was that you? Once you start needing medical treatment for cuts be aware that child protective services can get involved, and that shes not stupid, I bet she'll figure out what you are doing to yourself. You could be unintentionally teaching her this unhealthy and addictive coping strategy.