I havent cut properly for years, but the urge has come back now since the PMDD has started. For control. I feel completely out of control. I have no control over the next hormone change and when I will next go nuts be obsessive over it. I know Im going to do it. I've told people I am going to do it in the hopes they will stop me. But no one seems to care. I just hope I can control myself to the point that I dont need medical attention when the time comes around again, or I will be in real deep ****.
I crave the feeling I get, the calm from a nice deep cut.