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people are so annoying. I get understanding and sympathy for feeling bad but they don't acknowledge that is a problem that requires treatment. They don't even know the difference between a bad mood and depression and they say but you're not ill, you look fine. Dang it, it doesn't have to show to be an illness and I've simply learned to not wreak havoc about my feelings precisely because people don't understand what they are but that doesn't mean I'm fine. I just say I'm okay or so-so because I don't want to be preached that I should get a hold of myself already and snap out of it and stuff. It doesn't work like that. i was even told that being this intelligent I shouldn't be resorting to shrinks and crazy pills- as if intelligent people don't get depressed! I especially have trouble getting my feelings to mimic my thoughts so I usually do better with types of therapy different than cognitive-behavioral. Folks nag me that these pills are drugs, no less- folks who know nothing about psychology and farmaceuticals and folks who treat their depression with pot- wow, clever. Idiots. I don't even mention the pills or therapy or depression any more, I just keep popping my meds and can't wait for my first appointment with my psychiatrist. Douches can shove their myopic views up their favorite body opening, I don't care.
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Good for you for sticking to your guns and taking care of yourself despite all the bs other people say.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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