Hi again Alison. Thanks so much for your kind words. I've got an appointment with a therapist on Monday, which I'm lucky to get because there's a long waiting list. I think the lady saw I was not looking so good so she made me urgent, I don't know. The last sessions I had they did not want to diagnose anything, but I'm pretty sure I have major depressive disorder (MDD) just by looking at some online evaluations. I actually never realised, until reading some of the other posts on the other forums, that I have suicide ideation also on a regular basis. That scared me a bit, since I never realised how dangerous such thoughts could be.

Oh yes, sorry, you were so kind to provide your name. Mine is Adrian.