just got back from visiting Bean.
She is all over the place right now. we left after an hour. She was becoming agitated and frustrated with us just visiting.

Its okay. We expected it to be this way. As long as she remembers we were there and that we love her. They should be starting to titrate the Clozaril this week.We miss heer so much.

She will be there for a while. My fear is that at 14, she will be in hospital so long and often that she becomes institutionalized mentally and that we lose the family connection and relationship. Does that make sense?

Seems everyone has sleep issues. I take clonapin for sleep every night. Yea, im hooked. Been on it for years but ya know what? I sleep. Dont fix what aint broken. Its the only med I take and im sure it helps the rest of the day for anxiety to some degree too or else I would be much worse.

And yea.....Benadryl turned Bean manic when I tried it for her too! lol

oh, and we put the house up for sale. The way things are going though it may take a while to sell but were praying it sells in the next 6 months or so. Then we can move to SC where family is close to help us and support.