my moms on me about my weight again. saying i need to lose a few pounds. cant take this. IM...TRYING.

the paranoia is bad today. and my nerves are SO JUMPY. partly cuz this trip im nervous and then partly cause my illness. my sz is making it worse becuase im getting voices about how the plane will crash and stuff. so im not well right now. actually not by any means because of my nerves and paranoia. im scared ill be followed to california by gangstalkers.