Hey man,

I'm going through much of the same sort of thing right now. I'm a blob. No fun to be around. Less than fun, draining actually. I had a boyfriend but he just went through the ordeal of losing his best friend and mother. His distant behavior in dealing with that plus some other stuff and not maintaining my meds like I'm supposed to has left me in a dark depression. Now I was fine while he was going through her sickness and death and tried to be supportive afterwards, but he pushed me away.

Now I'm drowning and all I want is his comfort and he tells me he doesn't need to be brought down right now and I just need to get better. Wonderful. I feel so alone. I know what you are going through and I wish I could tell you it will all get better. I know it will get better when you come back up, but unfortunately its not something that goes away. Its part of why when I get depressed I usually get sui. It's like what is the damned point.

Its more complicated for me, because I also have children who would be devastated by my loss.... but its just so hard. I feel your pain and I will help you any way I can. I'm so sorry you feel so alone.