Did he specifically mention, disgust? Or is that honestly, a chosen word of yours, to explain to yourself what you imagine him to feel, when speechless? Its my words because he won't even really hug me.

Of course, with children around, it's necessary, to hide your injuries. The problem is its an index card size patch missing that is scaring. So the only way I'd be able to hide it is no longer wear most of my clothing because I cross hatched such a large area. Its a scar that is not going away so its part of my body or "new me".

I don't see me " recovering" due to the situations that I SI. The whole situation scared him.