sorry you went through this umkm.

for years i kept quiet. then i told my husband some. then i went through therapy and told them some. came on here and told people some, not everything. about to see proper pdoc for first time. i used to be ashamed too. but i know non of it was my fault, same with you. it was not your fault. you havenothing to be ashamed about. its the abusers that should be ashamed, please talk, it helps so much, pm me anytime if you like, i will listen. the only way to heal is by talking

good luck to you, i hope you find peace and help here with people who care

jinnyann xxxx