I want to be a med ditcher sometimes so, so, so badly but even when I'm not thinking clearly I still run my thoughts past my therapist who makes me "wait to talk to my pdoc" who talks me out of it. Well, this has actually only happened once and I'm still not 100% convinced I need to listen. The time I actually did ditch my meds, 10 years ago, went mostly well until 2 years ago when I became psychotically manic. You'd think I'd have learned a lesson but then I just start believing I'm well and was never actually sick.