Hllo I am sorry you are going through this at this time. A therapist and meds can help tremendously. There are many new medicaitons out at this time for OCD. Psisci (Dr Wylie) here at Psych central can further direct you to what medications are available for you at this time. You are more than welcome to PM Psisci or leave a message for him in the Drug forum at Psych Central. I truly feel your best option is professional treatment at this time. I hope the best for you welcome to Psych Central. Soidhonia.