I have not experienced much relief in the past few days. Trying to cope with life through healthy means take a lot out of me and it can seem fruitless. Currently I'm not tempted to go back to alcohol but instead to other substances. Dextromethorphan has been calling me. I know that'd be just as bad as going back to alcohol, possibly worse, and no matter how it plays out I know it'll ruin things. Still, for some reason I'm able to convince myself that it might be fine and that it's worth the risk. I really want some relief.