I'm almost 25 years old, and I have never had a boyfriend, am about to be homeless because no one will hire me, can't afford the medical tests I need because I have no money since no one thinks I'm worth hiring, my family acts like I'm not a member of the family, and I have virtually no friends.

So basically, nobody thinks I'm worth anything.

I've been trying to find a job for months, and I can't find anything. I've probably applied to hundreds of jobs already. I'm almost out of my savings, and I don't have anywhere to go if I can't pay my rent, so I'll just be living on the streets. I can't move back in with my dad because my younger sister is a NIGHTMARE...as in, she makes disgusting messes all over the house that she refuses to clean, and they eventually begin attracting fruit flies. The house smells nauseatingly awful, and it fills with fruit flies regularly. You can't even eat in that house without fruit flies landing on your plate. That's not even the half of it, though. She's also physically violent and screams all day long. I'd be better off sleeping under a bridge that living in that environment again.

I have a bachelor's degree in English and professional communications and decided to go back to school to take pre-medical prerequisite courses so that I can apply to medical schools in a few years and actually attain a degree that means something to employers. The thing is, in order to get into medical school, you have to job shadow doctors and volunteer to show your commitment to the community and healthcare industry. I have contacted dozens of doctor's offices asking if I can job shadow, and they all either don't respond to me or turn me down. Nobody is willing to help me out. Nobody thinks I'm worth investing in.

Not even my school's counseling center will help me by letting me at least talk to somebody. I went over there for an appointment, and they refused to see me since I am not a full-time student. They told me to go to an outside psychologist. I can't afford an outside psychologist because I have no money since no one will hire me. So basically, I'm depressed to the point that I'm scaring myself, and not even my university thinks I'm worth saving by giving me someone to talk to.

I don't know what I did to be so rejected by all of society, but I can't take it anymore. I did everything society told me was "right." I went to college and graduated with a 3.95 GPA. I made an A in every single college course I took with the exception of one. I'm not a felon or anything. What in the world makes me so undesirable to EVERYONE?

All I do is sit in my apartment and cry anymore. Every time I try to better myself, I hit a wall. It's become pretty apparent at this point that I'm just useless to everybody and nobody thinks I'm worth investing in to give me a chance at gaining some experience so I can become less useless.

I have no idea what to do. I'm depressed, I'm scared, and I'm sick. What am I doing wrong, and what do I need to do to fix it before I wind up living on the streets? I never once thought in my life that I would be Googling ideas for places to sleep when you're homeless, but that is what I've been doing.

I just want to be able to work. That's all I want. I mean, it's not all I want, but at least it'd give me some purpose and reason to exist.