Sorry I haven't been around in awhile. Life is difficult. I have been really struggling. I hope that it is alright that I post again.

I am worried about becoming to dependant on my T. It seems like every week lately I can't get through the week without calling or emailing him in between the sessions. I see him once a week. Every week I promise that I will not contact him in between but I am just so so I don't know the word. I am afraid he is tired of hearing it. I am tired of it, so I am sure he is to. I don't know where to turn. I hate calling & emailing him in between. He is always very gracious and tells me to call him again if I need to but I just can't anymore. I don't even know what we are doing. My next appointment is Monday and I don't even want to go. What is the point? Nothing ever changes. I am so tired and confused. I tell my T all the time that I am tired and confused and he tells me that these things in my life will not last forever, but I don't see anything ending. Everyday it just gets worse and worse. I could go on forever but I don't know if my thoughts really belong in this forum. But I don't know any of the other forums. Sorry if this to long.