Welp, how should I say this?.......I always have trouble putting the words together on the spot during most of my social encounters, I am as skinny as a twig. In school they used to let me know right away that I am an easy target, but no those who used to treat me as such gradually let me be. It seems as though a lot of other people have aswell, it is very rare that I seem to be able to hold any worthwhile conversation at all. I am at a loss for subject matter. I seem to always be pondering about something troubling me. And they know it, I can tell that they see it on my face (I should learn to fake it, I haven't been this depressed to really feel the need to ramp up my facade.) I hope I won't have to, I hate that my mother has to just to make things seem normal. Everyone thinks I am about to blow my top at any moment. The counselor at school thinks so, my parents, teachers, friends; they all know......

I only see a therapist on a bi weekly basis. Even after I saw this other t who recommended I come in on a weekly basis. I guess it was just my observable mood during our first session. I should call her to report on my mood these past few days. I will show her my posts on here in our future session.