Oh yeah, the rapid cycling is a big thing. He kind of suspected me of it last yearish but never was really certain. Now it is kind of evident. The plans you ask?...well basically I had plans but I got lucky and my sister happened to call me. It was so weird because I was suicidal and she called having no idea that I was depressed and told me about a dream she had where I got in a car accident and became paralyzed from the hips down, then killed myself. She said she would be really sad if I ever did, I think that helped me a lot. I'd like to think that saved me...the ironic thing is that about 3 months ago I was also suicidal and did a couple real bad self harm things...long story short, right after I did something to myself an hour later I got a call that my sister was in the hospital having exploratory surgery for internal bleeding.

RAMBLING...haha sorry, I'm just so happy she called at the right time.

So apparently when I get depressed my sister has really bad dreams and major surgeries... Sorry sis, I'll try my best to stop