I think I'm screwed - nothing has happened yet, but I was just thinking last night, if the stalkers send a decoy that acts and looks like a stalker, I'm going to think it is, so I'm going to react to save my life.

Then I'm going to go to prison for pulling out my knife and depending how far it goes - that could be for a long time. I can't even cope after 2 hours in hospital.

I going to talk through it with my nurse, but it seems like fate has already decided.