My physical illness is making me really, really tired these days, I think it's because I had Lyme also although that is taken care of. Problem is it does affect how I cope in general, mentally. When I feel strong I really don't care what people say, when you are fresh and healthy you have a much better mindset and you can think straight.
Someone on here made fun of me and my list of diagnoses. Still I hadn't even put them all in, but I guess this person thought it was overkill and no one has all that.
I am diagnosed with Asperger's and ADD, and a sleep disorder not too uncommon in spectrum people, also I am diagnosed with depression with anxiety, and OCD. I also have SAD and GAD but they don't make separate diagnoses in my chart, they are lumped up. Also I have what is formerly known as GID, but I am not diagnosed and I have never mentioned it to doctors.
I had what I feel the main stuff up on the page, AS, ADD, SAD, circadian sleep disorder and OCD. I don't at all mind being AS/ADD, that is just ME. My depression is treated quite successfully but the SAD remains and this winter has been harsh. The only 2 things are a huge pain in the butt and affect me a lot.
I'm not here to get pity, I thought those slots were to getting to know about people easier. But now I'm told I used them in a braggartly way. It upsets me to be misunderstood. It upsets me to be seen as a liar when I'm usually too truthful. And I'm well aware of how lucky I am, I have at last found pretty good help for my issues. I have a friend who "only" has depression and PTSD but she suffers more than I do. So it's not like anyone collects diagnoses for fun. It's not my fault society sees AS and ADD as 2 things as I see it as one in myself.
Anyway... I usually recover quite fast from hurt but this time I wonder if I can learn something. Not just "bounce back" to my normal functioning.
Maybe there is a lesson in here for me? Maybe I should explore this feeling? I just don't know how. Or maybe my lesson is to learn not to be surprised when people see me as a liar, not the first time it happens in my life.
Sorry for rambling.
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