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Originally Posted by failureatlife
Oh my goodness, it's been nearly 9 months since I joined and finally I've found people who can truly understand what I'm feeling. The first sign of this is your statement about "if you are a failure as a parent you are a failure at life", well, as you can see, my name here is failureatlife and stems in large part from being a failure as a parent. The second sign is Faking sane's "loss of a living child" which is the reason I feel I'm a failure as a parent. In my case it is my daughter and my world was shattered three years ago this month. I'm thankful for finding you all at this time though because it is when all the anniversaries of unhappy events begin again. This year I also have added failures such as the 25th anniversary of a loveless marriage next week and the loss of my job two weeks after that. My job is being eliminated, it is mostly the only reason I leave my house and I need to be able to push myself to find another job. 
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I know how you feel. Before I started the thread, I though I was the only person that wasn't in a movie that was estranged from her child. I told only a few people in my life because I felt that I would be judged a horrible person. And I only have 3 friends and one lives 1200 miles away. One knew my ex and Eric as she was our neighbor and she knows what we lived with. The other isn't very empathetic to anyone so I don't talk of personal stuff much with her. If I mention something, she always knows someone who had the same thing and it was no big deal. But if you have a friend who will listen call and/or meet for lunch (even if it's a burger at McD's--it's getting out) and hopefully you'll feel better I, too, tend to crawl into a shell when I hurt but it never helps for long. Good luck with the job search. I always hated doing that.
