Yesterday I was with this girl I really like, we had a romantic night and everything was going so well. But suddenly she stopped me to talk, she had something she wanted me to know, that she told me would be hard for me to understand, she said she was a sex addict and had a lot of sexual partners, she also told me she broke up with her last ex cheating on him (2 months ago).

She really want to change and I can see she is such a good person, but as a virgin and someone who was cheated before I was surprised and she thinks it's because im judging her, I knew she had a boyfriend and she wasn't a virgin, after she told it I made an effort to understand and also made some questions, but it started to get awkward and she asked to leave. She told me she had a sex partner and deleted him of her contacts after a week we were getting along (We are getting along for 3 weeks or less). I know she was really honest with me, I appreciate it, but it was really hard for me to diggest, I think it's because I'm afraid of getting cheated again, it was the worst experience I had. But I was with too many things in my head and she said my reaction didn't lie, she was afraid I was gonna judge her and for her it happened.

We went home, trying to act normal but it was awkward, I felt like I was being cheated, it brought back so many memories and i couldn't fell well, but only at the time she said she wanted to leave i started to feel anguish, I still love her, I have done anything just to make her happy and now I made she feel that bad.

When I got home I was anguish, I texted her the moment I got there, she didnt know i had a bad experience with cheating on the past So I told her, and that I did remember it when she confessed her past, I said that i knew it's not who she is, I told her i was sorry. She was too bad and said: "I wasn't gonna be a good company for you, that's why I left, i was felling too unconfortable to stay." she also said again I couldn't hide the frustration on my face.

The next morning (today) I remembered a dream I had, when I explained what was on my mind to her and she understood, then we just started acting normal again. I told my dream to her the next morning and that i was sorry, but i don't know if she is really accepting my apologies, that's why i'm here.

Also, she told me some days ago that she had a problem with lying, so this came to my mind, like, what if she cheat and lie to me in the future? I don't want to think like that, but It came to my mind and it wasn't right, did i just judge her? I really want to work on that, and I dont know how.

I need to do some questions based on my history:

1. Was I wrong to act like this?

2. Is there something wrong with me?

3. How do I stop feeling so insecure (If it is what is really happening here)?

4. What should I do next?

I'm really lost and in need of some guidance, any help will be welcome, thansk for reading my case.