I have struggled with bipolar and other mental illness my entire life. Multiple suicide attempts...multiple stays in a hospital for psych evaluation. As many on this thread, I sometimes spend entire days...or weeks...trying to come up with the best ways to die. The ways that dont cause much pain, and dont hurt the ones around me as much. My attempt was always hanging myself. I didnt want to make a bloody mess, and I didnt want to scare anyone who found me.....Sounds insane to normal people, but I know there are others like me that think this same way....I needed to find new ways to cope with this urge...this desire to die. I have never been a cutter however. My method is to punch myself in the head 3 or 4 times really hard when I feel those negative thoughts coming on. The hits to the head are sensational. I feel as though my brain releases a calming substance throughout my entire body when I do this. My negative feelings subside for a while after I do this...but only to return again and again. This works for me...but I know its not the "right" thing to do and is definitely not the answer to this problem. I am open to any/all suggestions. Thanks for reading.