MissBethy,
I just wanted to welcome you to the board. While I do not have your specific fear I am sure that there will be people on the board who would understand what you are going through.
I hope that you find this place helpful.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>