Hello.I am very sorry you are lonely. It is very hard to feel safe enough to let someone else in at times. I hope things can change for you soon and your therapist can help you work through some of your trust issues. There are support groups NAMI and DBSA are a few and it will not be exactly the same but it could help fill the void somewhat when you are around others that understand. Some NAMI groups go out to eat and socialize after the meeting and it is a nice time. Also maybe joining a singles group may be something you may be interested in as well. Take care soidhonia