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I also know now that I haven't even had a real relationship with me! I have a fantasy of who I think I am or who I would believe I am but I am not that fantasy. I am good and bad. I am a paradox of everything. I hurt, I laugh, I hate, I love. I try and avoid. I am what we all are. Human. I have pain, I have joy.

I am imperfect, I am unsure. I am alone first. I am me first.

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wow mouse, I feel this too. Wow, I mean really, this insight is incredibel because I feel it and probably could never find these words myself. The hardest part for me? The gray, all the gray inbetween the goo and bad and pain and joy. It's all the levels of the in-between I cannot do....it's so hard.