Are there ways of predicting when you are reaching this point? I'm starting to think its when my paranoia and delusions collide. Hence making my T stressed.

Which denotes, deep down you are feeling that way I'm vain as hell so scaring for me is a horrible thing and for my husband to react that way its even worse.

We made a deal I pack up my wardrobe that doesn't work with the scar. Then when my nephew moves out I can wear them. I have to ask my T how noticeable it really is that its a SI scar. My son is old enough to just know when mommy is really sick sometimes that happens. I'm known to wear very little clothing especially in the summer. I really don't understand why I'm scaring as an adult.