Anti-depressants can take a while before the concentration in your blood is at therapeutic levels. If, after a few weeks it is still not working, see about changing medications or adding on something that will compliment the one you are already using.

My guess is that you really don't want to die. You just want the pain and confusion to end. I know you are frustrated. Therapy takes a long time and a lot of trust, but ultimately, if you have a good therapist, finding the cause of your depression can go a long way in stopping it.

If you have an activity that you really enjoy, put your energy into working on it. Sometimes working on a hobby helps concentrate your thoughts and keeps your mind off of the problems eating away at your life.

Do you have a dog? It may sound silly, but because canines pick up our emotions so easily, they can be excellent helpers. They are always there for you, they don't judge and they know when you are in trouble. i was reading an article the other day about a woman who is schizophrenic. She has a dog with her all the time. When she has hallucinations, she looks to the dog. If the dog is reacting to what she is seeing or hearing, she knows that it is real. If the dog is not reacting, she knows she can ignore the hallucinations. She has a different problem than yours, but you might benefit from having a four legged friend.

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