Between family visits and massive anxiety I have had a rough weekend. My husband and I had a fight because of my mood and I have not been able to see my best friend this week. I feel so disconnected. I am not upset or angry I just feel adrift. The suicidal thoughts have crept back in. I have no intentions of harming myself. The thoughts are very academic in nature, but the fact that they are there makes me think I am back sliding.
I just feel very alone, and hopeless, and like I am just a big giant fraud. Faking it for the sake of the people who depend on me.
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