For the past while I'm suddenly sick of playing the game, I'm tired of pretending.Ever since I'm living through a facade nobody has seen much through it.

Suddenly now a stranger knows i have panic attacks, has noticed scars from cutting, has seen my negative outlook on life, and sees the control freak i am. He is ten years my senior and sees straight through my facade. Nobody has ever seen my cuts and only my t knows i cut to begin with. I didn't refute a single accusation he made and i actually offered info. When in the past my t had to threaten me to get information out of me.

I'm confused as to what's happening. I'm scared of what I'll say to this stranger, what more will i confess too. Where should i proceed from here? Do i go with it or should i retreat? (i want to retreat but at this point I'm scared I'm not capable.)

Why is it that he can see through me? What do i say when he comments on my cutting? I never had to deal with something like this since nobody knows what i truly am.