I apologize if I have seemed kinda distant lately. i have been having a hard week. Yesterday was the eight year anniversary of when my father passed away. I guess the fact that I am not handling it well shows me that I am still dealing with his death.
I went up to the cemetary with my boyfriend and I just cried. I am so angry at so many people for lying to me and keeping the truth from me for so many years. Everyone knew that my father was dying for months before I did. I found out the day that he died that he was sick. Even after he died no one would talk about it because it was not important.
Im sorry that I am rambling..just not feeling so good right now. I have been sleeping 12 hour days and life is just kicking the hell out of me in the process. So much to do before vacation and I just cannot do it. Now I realize that this is probably what is causing it.

Jessica

<font color=blue> You are in this snowglobe. It is encovered in glass and secure. But one day someone comes and shakes the globe and the pieces go flying everywhere. Now they will eventually settle but they won't be the way they were before and they can never be that way again. </font color=blue>