I've recently read tons of posts about people who fake their way through daily life. You know, just slap on a smile and get through the day. How? I can't fake it at all, you can see the hollowness in my face immediately. Only a generous application of makeup will help. Fortunately I have nice eyes and with some mascara and eyeliner they can look quite lovely, but I have to plaster loads of base and concealer to hide the dead look of my skin. As for behavior towards others, I don't even want to speak to anyone, and when I do it's forced and awkward. People can tell that I have nothing to say and that I'm very uncomfortable. I can speak freely to maybe three people. That's about it. On top of that, the actual effort to make myself look decent and be somewhere I don't want to be is monumental.