Well. I think the most important part is to realize that it isn't easy for anyone. Pain is pain no matter what kind of life you live and how many people take notice. In fact, if you think of it this way, it really kind of ruins it a bit. See, that poor girl is going to have to live with that title the rest of her life. All her neighbors, friends, family, peers, and strangers now know her story. They will automatically tie her to it and she can't ever really escape that. Not with the internet how it is these days. She will have to deal with looks of pity her whole life and nasty online comments from disgusting people who don't understand. It's a great thing she's going to get help but at that cost I would never want it. Along with having already a worse case of the sickness you have. Mental illness is not pleasant and I'm pretty sure if I had a worse case of depression I'd be dead.
I understand it's difficult to keep doing it but rationalizing everything out as often as possible helps me the most. To understand not only the current situation but the echoing effects it'll have on the rest of your life. And to understand that comparing yourself to other people isn't fair to anyone since you only get to see a snapshot of their life. Or one side. Very rarely do you get to see the whole person and if you saw all the anguish they go through, I doubt you'd want their life anyways. We are all trying are best but I can promise you no one has it easy--we all have demons we hide. The best thing you can do for yourself is to accept yourself. No one else can truly judge you so it's up to you to decide your worth. And always remember you are a work in progress and that you are still growing so you need to be gentle with yourself otherwise you'll never grow the roots you need to to be able to grow stronger.
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