thank you Petunia ...

I don't know. I don't want to risk putting on weight (I like my body now, I don't want to end up not liking it). I don't want to have to remember to take it. I don't want to have to take time to go to dr, I barely manage time to get contraception as it is. I don't want to go loopy when I drink wine (even though I recall someone saying they are not supposed to interact, I have done embarrassing things I don't remember when taking meds and having a few wines).

so a lot of motivation to NOT do it. but i dont really feel like this is healthy either.

maybe i should jsut give up