Thank you Jacq10 and Mouse.

I kept his reply's to my emails and I reread them. There are a few phrases in there that are helpful. I have a hard time trying to think what he would say. It is like once I leave - it is gone. It really is strange.

Mouse - I do alright for a week or two & then I am right back here. I am afraid that he is getting tired of this. I know I am tired of this. The same thing over and over. I feel stuck. I don't know what to do. I am afraid to tell him I am here again. I did on Monday and I emailed last week - so he knows that I am here again. But I won't email him this week no matter how much I want to. I don't know what I am going to do but I can't expect him to always be available. I need to snap out of this. I so wish I could. I don't know what I am going to tell him on Monday. I so want to go in there and say it is all fine, I had planned on doing that this past Monday, but when I walk in there I just start whinning and complaining. It is the same stuff week after week - the items may be different but the theme is the same. I have noticed that last week he was quieter & more direct. I don't know what to think. He says I am making progress but I don't feel any better. I don't know what we are doing. I am frustrated and don't know what to do. I feel worse.

Sorry I didn't mean to go again. I really appreciate you guys taking the time to answer.