Quote:
A dr once suggested that the failure w meds is the addict in me at work: I imagine that an anti depressant will take the pain away completely and am consequently disappointed when it can't causing the meds to b unsuccessful.
|
That is a pretty ridicules thing to say to you. Not at all true. For some reason meds just don't work for some of us. They have never been that effective for me either but I am still trying with them.
I know how you feel. I have been to thousands of AA meetings over many years, got a sponsor, worked the steps, many years of Alanon and did all I was supposed to do. I went to therapy for many years have been on every med there is and still this depression is getting worse as I get older. I tried working the steps on my depression and that didn't work. I got real resentful that the promises didn't really come true for me, that I wasn't happy joyous and free.
Be careful who you reach out to in AA. There are alot of people in there that also suffer from depression, a whole lot, but there are also those who don't have a clue. Some think that if you are on meds then you are not sober. Or you will get all kinds of feedback like you haven't worked the steps right, or just pray, or this or that. The best cure for depression is overtime is the best one I got. Sorry I don't have alot of hope to give you.
The dual diagnosis group I went to for two years was my favorite. It is frustrating when you can't get to meetings because the depression has you and you know it would help you. You might want to give meds another try as it can take alot of trial and error and different combinations.
I wish I had more hope to give you. It helps me alot participating in these forums and I also research and learn everything I can about depression and somehow that helps me.
I also have to say that I hate the Bruins being a hardcore Red Wings fan.