Hi Purplemoon. I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I know what it's like to think your T is going to say "Enough! It's over!" In fact, I tell my T that a lot in session-- I'll say something and then follow it up with, "Ok. I can see you want to kick me out of the room now." And he's always like, "What??" But remember-- even if we feel like our Ts want to get rid of us-- we only feel that way because of our past experiences... That's why a T is wonderful. Your T isn't going to get rid of you and neither is mine. As long as it takes, t$$$ (my bird just ripped a key off of my laptop-- okay now it's back on), your T will be with you as you get used to having a constant in your life. And your thoughts definitely belong on this forum-- keep posting.