I broke down last night and I just can't do any homework. I keep having panic attacks and I am barely sleeping. I feel awful and I just want to hurt myself so badly. Work has pushed me to the edge and now I feel like I fell off the cliff into terrible symptoms of mania. I can't take my extra dose of my risperdal because I work tonight so I'm just trying to be okay on my own. I wish my parents could help me, but they discriminate mental illness so badly. They'll just tell me "you don't have the time to be mentally ill, get your **** together and stop feeling sad". They think having a mental illness is just being sad and don't understand that it is also biological along with psychological. I get so frustrated when normal people like my family don't regard mental illness as something severe until I have a manic episode and call an ambulance on me...