Eh. I'm not sure what's the most embarrassing. I guess if I had to choose just one it would be the things I did when I was having a giant mixed episode about 4 years ago. Everything from absolute promiscuity (and I'm completely reserved normally when it comes to that) and the things I said to the people I love the most. Also, the obsession with the ex at the time. I look back now, and it would definitely have to be due to a mental disorder. She is a terrible person. -____- when I think of how much I thought I needed her I gag and die a little. I gag a lot, actually.