Hello Adelaide: I just happened onto your post. I see in one of your posts, you mention you're working on seeing a therapist. I hope this works out for you. Therapy will be important in helping you sort out your feelings about depression, anxiety, self-esteem & gender identity dysphoria.

I also noted that you mentioned a severe medical condition. I presume then that transition would probably not be a possibility for you, assuming that this was something that you even wanted, of course.

I'll just tell you that I'm an older person who has lived his whole life as an untransitioned transgendered person. (I have several posts in the "Transgender and Other Gender Support" forum. You said you could ramble forever with questions. You can private message me any time. I'd be glad to correspond.