About six months ago, I confessed to a friend that I had romantic feelings for him. I didn't do it in the most ideal of ways, in fact, I don't think that alcohol induced confessions are really ever the best way to do those things, but what's done is done. He told me that he likes me a lot, and cares about me, and that I have a lot of qualities that he likes in a woman, but that he just didn't feel that way about me. I was crushed, but I dealt with it, hoping that my feelings for him would subside. The problem is, they haven't. I still have strong feelings for him, and part of me thinks that if we gave it a shot, we would work well together. The thing is, I have a really hard time saying my feelings, because I don't think that I'm entirely comfortable with them, and I'm afraid that if I do say something, that I'll drive him away as a friend, but if I don't say something I'll always regret it. So my question is, how do I get myself to the point where I can say what I feel, or is it just not worth it to do it? I feel sometimes like I need "dealing with feelings for dummies" or something like that. One would think that after 25 years of life, I'd at least have that down...
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