I have had an idle fantasy of moving in with her on occasion, because her house and life are quiet with lots of room, haha, and mine are NOT. But... I have never really wanted her to save me from everything, I'm just really too self reliant for that. I trust my own judgement too much and want to be self-directive too much to really want to be carried off to a golden castle.

I see therapy as more of a negotiation and learning process than a set of instructions that will lead to a perfect life if I follow them. I mean, I value her opinion, but I see her more as a mentor than a savior.

I guess I just don't think I could be authentic or happy in a golden castle.... I want to build my own one, a unique one.