((((purplemoon)))) Could you try keeping a journal and writing in that when the urge strikes you to e-mail your T? My T has very firm boundaries and doesn't allow clients to e-mail him. I think this is a good thing for me, as I like to express myself in writing, and I could just see myself overusing this method of communication. For whatever reason, your T has chosen to allow you to be able to e-mail and call him when you need to. Maybe he thinks you really need this! Maybe you do. If you think you don't need this, could you tell him you need his help in setting an e-mail boundary? It might be a starting point. Sometimes it is hard to know where to start.

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I'll say something and then follow it up with, "Ok. I can see you want to kick me out of the room now." And he's always like, "What??"

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I can relate to that, pinksoil, only I am not open enough to tell T I feel that way. Kudos to you for that. I bet we all feel that way at some point in therapy.

purplemoon, so far nothing you've written here suggests to me that your T wants to get rid of you or can't handle you or that you are too much for him. (((hugs)))

Winterrose, I liked your analogy with the tunnel and the therapist shining the light.