By its very nature bipolar is a cyclical condition. Meaning it is unlikely for you to be doomed to depression for the rest of your life. If you have long cycles it can seem interminable. I have short episodes, typically two weeks max, and even i start to think it will never end. I have found it's nearly impossible to see the other side while in an episode. I was just hypomanic on Friday and I though I was the most amazing person that could ever lie and that I would always be super high and mighty...today I want to crawl in a hole. I felt like everyone hated me at work and that they were all talking about it. And I've already forgotten what I felt on Friday, as if I'll never feel it again (which is true if I stay on meds).

I don't know if you have tried anything other than latuda but a mood stabilizer might help bring you up and keep you stable.